Veronica Rolls Up Her Sleeves Film A Real Life Psoriasis Story
Veronica: In this year, I had already stopped going to school. Um, this is probably one of the last times I did not wear sleevespublic. I still look at these pictures and go, â€œOh my God, my skin used to be so nice.â€� I look just like my brother. It's kind of creepy. I vaguely remember one daymy bathroom. I was getting ready to go somewhere, probably blow ying my hair or something. And my mom noticed the patch on the back of my head, and she didn't know what it was either, or what to do about it and at that time, seeing a never really came up.
After the diagnosis, that's when everything kind of changed. I began staying home more, not really wanting to get out of bed, you know, depression, anxiety, that kind of stuff. I think I pushed away people more than they reacted, everything that they wanted to do, whether it be go to the beach or go paintballing. Or I remember one night, they all wanted to go to like a trampoline park. And the dialoguemy head kept saying, â€œYou can't do that. You can't do that. You can't do that.â€� So eventually, by my mid20s, I didn't really have any friends anymore to speak of. Everything was long sleeves, either pants or skirts that touched the ground. Um, the only skin I ever showed was the skin on my face.
And even then, if it was a bad day I wouldn't even leave the house. You know, â€˜cause walking around with a bag over your head isn't really an option. My girlfriends used to say, you know, â€œOh, take your sweater off. No wonder you're hot.â€� You know, they don't get it. People recommended tea tree oil, so I would put a little tea tree oil on or whatever. But it just kept coming back. I was on a different mediion. I had been on that for almost two years. There was still consistent plaque and then the topicals would take a couple of layers off.
That's the thing with psoriasis, it's nothing really stops it. It just keeps going. Aaron: It really played on her selfesteem. She looksthe mirror, how could she possibly love herselfé I mean she's looking at this thing going, â€œOh, like this is, you know, it's gross. It's itchy, it's uncomfortable. I'm miserable.â€� Well if she doesn't love herself, then how really is she going to love meé Well, you know the saying that you can't really love somebody until you love yourself. So even though at 23, I met a man who was able to see past the psoriasis,
it became a battle of pushing him away. It was rough. The fact that it battered her selfesteem so badly played a huge roleour dynamic,our relationship. Obviously I still have a lot of guilt about how I behaved for the first five years of my relationship with him. The reason that I hungthere is because I saw somethingher. I saw that tenderness, that loving, that caring. I saw that big heart
and I know that there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. When I finally decided to roll up my sleeves and take it seriously, um, it probably has a lot to do with the fact that I'm getting married. They talked about the treatment several years ago now. And she kind of said, â€œWell we'll keep that as a last resort.â€� If I could do it differently, you know, when I got the diagnosis at 21, I would have seen a dermatologist right away. I would have gotten on a treatment right away. The sooner you get on top of it, the better you are.
1 comorbiditypsoriasis is depression
Bruce Jancin writingRheumatology Newsreported on findings presented at the Hawaii Dermatology Seminar. While cardiovasculardisease has always been considered the most common comorbidity of psoriasis and psoriaticarthritis, it appears that the most common is actually depression. Also, encouragingevidence suggests that successful treatment of the psoriatic disease also lowers the incidenceof depression according to Kenneth Gordon of Northwestern University. Comment: Interesting and encouraging.